A Poetic Subtweet

art by jiaakuann


if I do not like you or do not love you,
keep your trivialities away from me.

you don't even know my favorite color
yet you use your paintbrush to project all your insecurities onto my canvas...

until I am the same color as you:
dark, dark blue.

taking every breath became my own personal olympics,
while you critiqued the way I exist,
too loudly for you. 

I was thinking about killing myself
while you were screaming over the dust of the earth.

I would never wish anything bad upon you,
and my reasoning is simple. 

I already know you're never going to experience true love, true friendship, or true happiness. 

And maybe,
just maybe,
that's why you put so much effort into trying to take mine away. 

Blue Bubbles

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i am aware of your intentions,
treacherous yet enticing -
pulling me in with every word, every operative glance.

i do not want anything to do with you,
yet here i am.
blushing at my phone at 1:59 am,
wanting to feel your fingers on my keyboard,
losing sleep over three white dots trapped in a gray bubble.

you are the illness i will never cure,
you are the the poem i will never write,
you are the thought i will never finish,
you are the text i will never read.

i will always have the power.
but today,
you found my off switch.