Happy in my own little world.

My bio on social networking sites has been "happy in my own little world" for years now. It's always been my catchphrase. But what does it mean?

I've been "happy in my own little world" forever. Yet I've never tried to express it into written words.

Happy in my own little world means all of those years I pretended my bed was a birds-nest or a desert island. All I needed was my blankets to keep me warm, my books and stuffed animals to keep my company, and my imagination to keep me sane.

Happy in my own little world means all of those years I pretended my room was my apartment, and my family were my neighbors. Eating goldfish as my dinner and smiling about nothing.

Happy in my own little world means all of those years I lived inside of books, films and video games. Where fictional characters were my best friends and fantasy lands were my home. Where I didn't care if it didn't seem real to other people, because it was real for me.

Happy in my own little world means all of those years I was physically sitting in class, but every other part of me was somewhere else. I didn't care if my classmates didn't include me, I was always much happier just being myself.

Happy in my own world means all of those years I spent my Saturday nights sleeping over at my grandmas house watching SNL with her and eating my weight in hot cheetos.

Happy in my own little world means all of those years my boyfriend and I spent together, forgetting everyone else was in the room.

Happy in my own little world means all of those years I spent wearing what I wanted to wear because it made me joyful and reflected who I am.

Happy in my own little world means all of those years I spent getting joy from the littlest things: like sitting by the fire with a hot chocolate or holding hands with my love at the park on a nice summer day.

Happy in my own little world means so much more than just those phrases.

Happy in my own world simply means I live in my own world. I am free to be myself. I don't have many friends. I don't care what others may think of me. I don't grow up. I don't change for anyone. And that's the way I like it.

These are things that are apart of me forever. These are things that I do in the past, present and future. This is me and I'm happy in my own little world.

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