Prologue: NOTHING - EVERYTHING

"I WAS BORN WITH THIS CURSE, I CAN'T HELP IT," she said. "No matter how hard I try, I am numb. I cannot feel what others feel but I can see what others cannot see. I am bitter and I am indecisive. This runs through my veins. I've wasted my youth under the covers wondering why everyone else seems to have a fixed identity, you know, like they've known who they are from a young age. But I'm lost. I know I'm meant to be Lily, but I don't know who she is." At this moment, the room seemed to feel colder, the lights seemed to dim, and the air seemed to feel dry.
"Who are you?" an unknown voice from across the room said.
"I'm a myth. I'm not real. I don't exist. I am a figment of your imagination. I'm nothing but I can promise you I will be everything."

SEA OF BITTERNESS

SHE SPENT HER YOUTH DROWNING IN A SEA OF BITTERNESS, JUST TO GET TO PARADISE

1: ROCK N ROLL GROUPIE
2: PRETTY PRINCESS
3: WALLFLOWER CHILD
4: BUSINESS BITCH
5: HOLLYWOOD STARLET
6: LILY (PURITY)

Ecstasy

Loving him is cinnamon tea,
autumn lullabies and oak trees.

Baby voice, porcelain skin.
Black dress, long hair, cupcake grin.

I'm your little baby princess, your schoolgirl crush.
I'm your candy coated mess, your sweetheart lush.

Hold my hand in front of the pearly gates,
our infinite paradise now awaits.

Snowflakes

Heavy eyelids and demonic hallucinations,
drifting away into nothing.
Going, going...gone.

The drowning sound of static awakens me just before dawn.
I do not move.
I am enjoying the darkness, I am enjoying the silence.

Moments pass.
The night is dead, the sun has risen.
Caffeinated thoughts and synthetic yawns.

Time is ticking.
Growing older with mindless bodies in a concrete box.
Same time, same place, same feeling.

The seasons change.
Unfortunately I cannot embrace spring's blooming flowers.
I cannot feel the comfort of summer's warm touch, nor can I appreciate the beauty of autumn and it's colors.

The snowflakes will fall,
I will stay standing.